lovedeluxe

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You know they said it is better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all.  But if I had known that this is where it would have gotten me, I would have told love to just screw it!
lovedeluxe

Full circle

Well here I am again. The first time I wrote in here I was heartbroken. And as I am writing now I am once again heartbroken. Who would have thought I would end up here. This time though I have a lot more invested and a child to consider. I know that I will get through this. I don't know how or when but I know I will.

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lovedeluxe

Hello?

I cannot believe how long it's been since I've updated this thing.  It feels good to be back.  Don't know how long I'll continue this, but I've missed this.  I don't even think most people are on this platform anymore.  They probably are on facebook or something.  I think I will start using livejournal again.  I have a lot of things to say. 
sade4

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You know over and over again I think about it.  Did I make the right decision when I married Ty?  I just feel like I can't really ever trust him.  Because in the back of my mind there's this doubt that if he lied about being married then he can lie about anything.  I don't know what to do.  Maybe he isn't the right person for me.
mos def

Blah . . .

I don't know . . . I feel so blah.  I haven't felt like that in a long time, but I find myself feeling like it now.  Honestly I don't even know why I feel this way.  Why now?  Personally everything is fine.  Hubby is treating me good.  I have my own house.  My family is doing fine.  Yet I just feel so depressed and unhappy.  I feel like I'm not fulfilling my purpose.  I feel so lost in my ways and I don't know where to turn.  I feel like I need to make some decisions where everything is concerned.  It has got to get better.  It just has to.  Please tell me that it will.  I don't have any faith in myself.  I don't have much faith in the future. 
loved

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I'm writing from my new laptop.  It was an early birthday gift from my hubby.  Hopefully I'll write more often now that I have one.  We'll see. 
lovedeluxe

ReVeLAtiON

I don't think I am gonna make it with him.  It just seems so hard.  I don't think I'll ever really truly be happy with him.  Not with all the baggage, not with all the bullshit.  He's not the one for me.